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Death and Life Journal

Mon Jan 20, 2014, 5:59 AM
OK. So my grandmother died december 27th. My 18th birthday is february 1st. Apparently my relatives (including my father) thought it would be a fantastic idea to have the funeral the day before… 

Her death was really sudden and unexpected. She specifically requested the doctors not to tell anyone - including her husband whom she has been married to for many many years. We later four out that she knew she was going to die since middle of november but for some time people thought she knew before her birthday (1 week before she found out) and lied to all of our faces etc. She had already been in the hospital for 1 week before we really starter to worry because she said it was only an infection and another week after that she died. 

We went to visit her on december 24th which is the day we celebrate christmas here and she already looked like a corpse. That day at 3pm when everyone else in Sweden sits down to watch the same Donald Duck rerun as every year (huge tradition) we heard from the doctor about her condition which was that her cancer was back and that if she didn't start responding to treatment she would be dead in a matter of days. The cancer choked an important vein to the liver and she died from liver failure. 

After our visit we had to go celebrate christmas at my uncles house and tell them about her. They were chocked but had already considered it, unlike me who hadn't been told anything until the day before. In order to still make it a happy christmas for their kids all of them kept their pokerface and I was the only one in tears. It did not help that my grandmothers brothers girlfriend started taking pictures of me (while crying) and got really offended when I walked away from it.

Anyway now I have to prepare a birthday party. I feel sick even thinking about the concept birthday so I really don't want to "celebrate". When I try to get some advice from my mother who is the one wanting me to celebrate she just starts to rapidly defend herself for wanting to go to the funeral. Good job. The things I had already planned had to be scraped because serving a cake in the form of a bloody brain might not be the most sensitive thing to do… 

I can't really say I have the time to be thinking about this at all because I've got so much to do in school now it's filling my entire time. Instead of doing the work however I choose tumblr. Yeah. Good job there. 

Sorry for the long journal just needed to vent.


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  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Avenged Sevenfold
  • Watching: Game of Thrones
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Gluten free
  • Drinking: Milk

In a world where you decide at a certain age wether to become completely good or completely bad, which one would you choose? 

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Drimr Mar 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! *.*
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therenostampforthis Feb 27, 2014  New member Student General Artist
thanks for the watch, although I see our music tastes are quite different. interesting.
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MiyuKinTan Feb 17, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fav :)
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sohol Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem :)
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petrova Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist
Grattis i förskott! Ett av dina verk är med i KingdomOfSwedens födelsedagsfeature som du hittar här: kingdomofsweden.deviantart.com…
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sohol Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Tack!
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rockersdecorous Jan 21, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav. :)
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sohol Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No prob ^^
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I just bought the Silent Hill: HD Collection on Xbox Live. For some reason, the collection does not include the first game, but at least I will be able to play Silent Hill 2 and Silent hill 3.

Also, I hope that you and your family are doing well since your grandma passed away recently. I am sorry to hear about that.

No matter what, you are a beautiful and amazing person!
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sohol Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
YESS! 
The HD Collection is poorly made filled with bugs the originals didn't have but it's way better than nothing! So please donut judge the games based on bugs and poor voice acting because they changed all that, just focus on the story and puzzles etc xD

2 it the fan favorite so I think you'll enjoy that a lot :) However my favorite is 3 because the original is just perfect in every aspect possible :D

I think the reason why the first one isn't there is because it was originally released on the ps1 and the graphics are worse than the sims 1 in some ways. It's a very good game and I doubt it would have been made justice if someone tried to rebuild it…

Though I highly recommend you watching a let's play of it before you play 3 because it's a direct sequel story-wise. Also if there is something you don't understand about the amazing story or just want to know more about the games then watch The Real Silent Hill Experience on youtube by TwinPerfect (they are awesome) who really tries to explain it all.

Good luck :)

We are doing somewhat well. It's tense but we try to just relax. The funeral has been set to the day before my 18th birthday so yeeeah :/
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Bugs and glitches? Well.....that was $30.00 well spent. lol I looked online for reviews and heard, generally good things. I would have bought the PlayStation 2 and PlayStation versions, but the HD was more convenient. Plus, I do not have my PlayStation 2 with me. I still might buy the original someday, though. You are right; the collection is better than nothing!

I have heard good things about both Silent Hill 2 and Silent Hill 3, and I cannot wait to start them!

That's a good reason. I don't know much about porting games; so, maybe it is best that it stayed on the PlayStation. I will still try to play it one day.

Normally, I would avoid looking at a let's play before I start the game so that I do not spoil anything for me. However, I will probably take up your suggestion since you know more about the Silent Hill series than I do. Thank you very much! I will check out TwinPerfect.

Thank you so much! You rock!

I am glad to hear that you all are doing well. You could try using good memories to help with grieving, and remember to be gentle with yourself. I know that things will be weird since the funeral will be before your birthday; but know that you are not alone and that things will become better. As usual, you may speak with me if you need to.
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sohol Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah those bastards xD 

I recommend the originals but it seems like it would be a waste of perfectly good money to buy both even if the games are very different. I'll leave it to the gentlemen at TwinPerfect to explain though :P

:iconlascrollplz: awesomeness!

The best would be if someone would just rebuild the game from scratch exactly as it is but with better graphics but it would be nearly impossible get an (in lacking of better word) unedited version of the game, even if it were the original creators who would do it…. The ps1 charm is beautiful though xD

The thing is Silent Hill is a series who shows you rather than tell you. In SH3 they quickly tell you during a car scene what happened in the first game so you will get spoiled anyway. However if you watch the first one then you can get familiar with characters who will appear in the third game where the character explores the town based on what Harry did in the first game and go in to detail about a character in the first game that only will make a little sense compared to know the full story. But I also think that experiencing the first game by yourself i much more fun and meaningful than just watching a let's play! And if you don't want spoilers then don't watch the TwinPerfect videos until you beat the game. Or you can just skip the let's play and let them explain the first game. xD

You to!!

I don't really have that many good memories with her and the ones I have are overshadowed by the bad. Our relationship was at some few times really good and at many more times really bad. I had just made up with her before she died which is a really weird feeling. Also my father has started his manipulating techniques on me again to get me alone with my grandfather who keeps talking about how he doesn't have anything to live for except for his dog and a few projects. I forgive him considering the circumstances but it just doesn't feel safe…

Thank you and likewise! If you want you can add me on Skype, though I don't have a mic and just use it like msn >_<
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1kornygrrl Dec 27, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav!!! :D
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sohol Dec 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! Also you have an excellent taste in music/tv shows xD
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1kornygrrl Dec 30, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Oh thank you! Haha what in particular?
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sohol Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Kamelot, Avenged sevenfold and SOAD as far as I can tell xD
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Dax79 Dec 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Glad you have joined silent-hill-tattoos.deviantart… Silent-Hill-Tattoos
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sohol Dec 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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sohol Dec 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow this is just BEAUTIFUL! Merry Christmas to you too xD
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1-N-F-E-C-T-E-D Dec 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Real art you know :D

Thank you ^w^
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sohol Dec 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
The bestest :P
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:iconjanetateher:
Wishing you joy, fun, love, and comfort, I hope that you enjoy many blessings this season. Merry Christmas and happy new year!
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sohol Dec 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
And I wish you awesomeness, love and opportunity. You are an awesome person :)
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thanks for the watch!
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